I used to think I had a gift of seeing. I thought I was seeing the world like God was seeing it. I didn't realize that all my past pain and unforgiveness was tainting my view of what I was perceiving. As I looked about, I would condemn the world I look upon. I would hold the past against everyone and everything, making them my enemies. In this I thought I found safety.
Then I realized the only real enemy I had was the way I perceived the world around me. My own attacking was bringing attack to me. The more I attacked my brothers and sisters the more abundant the attacks were against me. I also realized that I had no real peace when I attacked someone else.
Then I forgave myself and remembered who I was (a child of God and brother of Jesus). I found out their not going around behind peoples backs, warning others about others, telling secrets, forming pacts with some and omitting others, building organizations at the expense of some, pointing out faults and differences or with holding forgiveness. I found out if I wanted to be like them I had to act like them. In the bible Jesus said "love one another and by this they will know you are my disciples."
Then the most amazing thing I discovered was the more I forgave people the more peace I got in my life. Their is no safety in unforgiveness! Their is no safety in attacks! Their is perfect peace in forgiveness and love. For I am fully persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Therefore I will bless everyone and everything I see and I will look with love on all that I see and then I can see the world as God sees it. And then I can experience and see Peace...
I really like this. I still feel blind, but I can sure see a little better than I used to. I think I'll just quit "trying" to see and just rest in his love. Amazing how things become clear when we are resting there.
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